Because my God goes before me and knows the fears and insecurities that often plague my mind He sends His truth to me and I have no other reason than to rest in His faithfulness. As I begin this new season of becoming a pastor’s wife I have already heard so many jokes and I laugh and it’s all in great fun. But deep down I feel myself moving into a glass house and I see the expectations of others rising as well. I believe that God has placed the most incredible group of ladies around me and I find myself thanking God for them daily! I see how quickly loneliness and other emotions can creep in just because you are afraid of messing up. This often leads you to withdrawal yourself and to step away from people in order to NOT fail them. In the midst of all that satan tries to steal your joy, silence your voice, kill your dreams and keep you from blooming. I also know that my God is My Joy! He gave me those dreams! He has my thoughts and He brings forth my bloom!!
Isaiah 61:10-11 I will sing for joy in God,
explode in praise from deep in my soul!
He dressed me up in a suit of salvation,
He outfitted me in a robe of righteousness,
As a bridegroom who puts on a tuxedo
and a bride a jeweled tiara.
For as the earth bursts with spring wildflowers,
and as a garden cascades with blossoms,
So the Master, God, brings righteousness into full bloom
and puts praise on display before the nations
I will rest in His faithfulness follow in His obedience and allow a NEW bloom to spring forth in my heart and as all that takes place I will also remain who I am-just me ….simply me:)