Have you ever been so over something that it made you soooo mad when you saw it again, or heard it again or even experienced it? I think about growing up and having all these crushes and boyfriends whom you knew you loved! (even in elementary school) and how when you broke up they suddenly went from I LOVE them to being totally repulsed by their presence. Then moving to high school and you begin looking back at middle school its suddenly a joke because one summer can make you feel older and wise then anyone “back” there. You then move on to college or work and suddenly you look back at high school as just a glimpse of your past. You cross your fingers with the hope you don’t run into anyone because you fear you won’t remember names. I was just sitting her thinking about so many things and how we often are given second chances to prove ourselves or move forward as new seasons come into our lives. God has offered complete and unconditional grace to us and yet we often limit how much we give out to others. We look past the cross and see ourselves and our selfish gain. How will this help or hurt me? How will I gain from this? I don’t know where it suddenly goes wrong. I think back to my childhood and how I hurt so many people because they didn’t fit into my agenda or mold of how I thought things should or would turn out. Even as a child we make decisions on how things will be best for ourselves rather then others. I am learning this even through my own children. If I ask Rebekah to pick up something it’s usually “but…it’s not mine” I mean it would take her getting off the couch to do it (wouldn’t want her to get tired). I also look in the mirror so many times and ask God to change me. I beg to lose weight, or change who I am …and then I ask myself for what? I mean really for what? It’s to make me feel better about who I am in the environments and social circles I am in. I think we have to get to a point that we GET OVER OURSELVES in order to see and become who Christ created us to be. God has our hearts and He has our circumstances under control and the future isn’t to be viewed as “Hit me with your best shot” its seeking God with all you have and RUNNING to Him no matter what. Being so over yourself that you have no room for your agenda! When you push the things that keep you from Jesus out then it just opens that much more room in your heart for His love, His grace, His mercy and HIS TIMING. Just a thought….
Psalm 119:36 Turn my heart toward your statutes
and not toward selfish gain.
Philippians 2: 1-4If you’ve gotten anything at all out of following Christ, if his love has made any difference in your life, if being in a community of the Spirit means anything to you, if you have a heart, if you care— then do me a favor: Agree with each other, love each other, be deep-spirited friends. Don’t push your way to the front; don’t sweet-talk your way to the top. Put yourself aside, and help others get ahead. Don’t be obsessed with getting your own advantage. Forget yourselves long enough to lend a helping hand.
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